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Husband/Children

Thank God for my Husband .....

I miss my children !!!

Missing Fewick and Sharon

Recently I recieved a few new photos of my Brother ,who passed last sept. I viewed them yesterday and printed out one of the favorites . Since viewing them Ive gone back to the place where I was grieving so heavily . My heart aches from missing my brother so very much and now my only sister is moving away ,to VA. actually,which wouldnt be impossible to get to, but its not exactly next door either . At first I was mad ,now Im sad about her moving. I so wish her and I were closer . I truly miss her too .

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 Yesterday was filled with memories ,tears and longings .Isnt life funny ,how it turns out sometimes ? And now its moving faster then I can could of ever imagined it would .  

   

Emotions.......

My daughter inlaw has cancer ...   I come  here to vox and check for her writings everyday . I often read them with tear filled eyes and an aching heart. I wonder just how it will all turn out . Hopefully with a new found cure in the immediate future .

....She's so brave . My heart aches for her and my son . I want so badly to be able to take all their  pain and suffering  away but unfortunately thats not how it works . I pray daily for some miracle to happen to make her well again . Im certain her family is going thur hell too . I also pray daily for them .

    She can still make me laugh at the world when we speak ...she's so positive and so strong .. Im so proud of her . I love her with all my heart just as I do my own children .

     I worry about the two of them . I do believe that my son was made for her and visa versa . Isnt it weird how things happen sometimes ? Like how you meet  someone that you absolutely adore for life ! Amazing ,just amazing .

     Here's to years more of making memories together ................

ps. See you in 2009 for that HUGE PARTY the two of you are going to throw !!!!! XOXOXO

  

Mark .....

Finally ! Mark ,my youngest son will be returning home  on April 27th . I'm so excited to be having him come home to stay for awhile , a long while ,I hope !

    My dream now is to  have a holiday or any day when all 3 of my children are in the same room  together with me  .  God ,how I miss them being underfoot .

    Amazing  how short 30yrs really is ! I wish I had understood the value of "Time" long ago ! I do understand it now and it seems to go by faster then ever ! I need to start enjoying every minute I'm given here and I plan to !

    Marks homecoming is something Ive been looking forward to for a very long time now .I've got everything all set up for him ... his room is cozy and clean and warm and filled with many of the Christmas gifts he didnt get ,same with Easter ....and Ive gotten some drawing supplies for him so he can draw his heart out . I think he will be pleasantly surprised this time .

    Marks return also comes with a renewed family . I feel he had lost his way and now has found a new path to come home on. His older brother and sister are now  back in his life too along with his father and his cousin Melissa and my cousin Jamie . There is no reason or room for failure this time . We're all looking forward to Mark finally starting his life !!!

   

Burrrr....

Winter has arrived ..........

 

   OMG ! Its  21 degrees outside today ..feels like 5 !! Burrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr !! We've been wondering where the  heck old-man winter was and now he's here ! O joy !!!!!! I was kinda of enjoying the delay this year . Seems the older I get the more I dislike the really cold weahter . Id be much happier if it only snowed and was a lil chilly on Christmas Eve and Christmas day ! :-)  ..yeah yeah ,I know ..wishful thinking . I keep thinking I should move somewhere where  this doesnt  happen but thats all it is so far ,just thoughts  . Perhaps when I retire that will be the thing to do ??  Maybe thats why Fla is full of senior citizens ?

Blue hair and warm weather ??? Hmmmmmmmm

Sons ........... My oldest son.......

Sons ...........

 

    My oldest sons birthday is coming up (Jan. 26) , I remember that day as if it were yesterday !! It was 3:32pm on January 26,1976 the weather was calm . I was only in labor for 3 hrs. and there was very little pain involved. He weighed 7lbs.6oz. and was 21" long . He had blonde hair and blue eyes (like mommy ) :-)  As I counted his fingers and toes ,which were all there (he was perfect) , he was wide awake staring out at the world before him ! He was such a good baby . He slept from 6pm - 6 am everyday from the day I brought him home with me  from the hospital . I remember having to wake him to play with him in the evenings . He was always happy and content .He was always very loving and cuddly . I took him everywhere with me . I remember how he cried when I  had to leave him with a babysitter while i worked ..I remember how he hung onto me and smiled when I returned from work to pick him up in the evenings ,I remember how wonderful it felt to hug him and how wonderful it felt when he  hugged me back .  I remember the year he was born it was like 90 degrees out on Easter and he was in a just a tee  shirt and diaper because it was so hot out and i was a lil upset because i didnt get to put his  "easter outfit" on him ,lol .I remember taking long walks  with him in his stroller . He loved being outside ,still does I believe.  I remember feeling that I had never been closer to anyone or anything more than I was to Michael ! I dont think any mother could ever love a son more then I love mine . Funny the things you remember and  how time flies and you dont even notice at the time . My son has grown into a wonderful man . I couldnt be more proud of him .He will always be my hero !

Happy Birthday Son ............I love you more then words can say , always have ,always will !!!

Enjoy your special day and your special gifts (coming your way)

OXOXOXOXOXO
Mommy

This year for Christmas my...

This year for Christmas my son and his wife came to New York to be with us for holidays. I was filled with love and peace .They stayed for two whole weeks ! During that time I felt like a million bucks ! My heart was so full as my thoughts reminded me of another child that I so miss , my youngest son . But knowing he'll be here with me in April helped ease that space where he belongs . I was amazed at how my daughter in-law was able to keep going throughout the holidays . She has more stamina then any of us ,thank God ! I feel very proud of her and my son for the way they are handling her illness. I pray for a cure everyday .She's such a trooper ,I just love her ! I  just love them both all there is  !!!!  On Christmas morning I felt like the luckiest mother in the world ! We all gathered round the Christmas tree where we spent a couple of hours opening gifts we all had gotten each other . My son Michael played "Santa" as he had so many years ago when they were all children . When I close my eyes I can see him at age 8 , 9 , 10 ,11...ect being Santa for our family and handing out gifts that were layed under the tree. I felt like the magic was finally back in Christmas this year. I absolutely loved having them here as well as loved having my daughter here with me .She too is a fine young lady ,one to be proud of . I thank God everyday for all of them and for this life I  have .We've come to realize that whenever Michael and Jasmin are here we tend to go out and try something "new" in the food department . This time they had us try "Indian Food" . To my surprise we ALL liked it  ,quite a bit matter of fact. Cauliflower-potatoes to Naan ,we really liked it . :-)  Matter of fact we all said we'd deffinately go out and have that food again ,even if Michael and Jaz arent  here ,lol . I certainly was blessed when I  had my children and then when they picked their spouses ! :-)   . Well now is the winding down time from the craziness of the holidays  .Not sure exactly sure how one does that , I miss them all terribly ..hence the two cats I just adopted ,lol . So far they really are keeping me busy ! and somehow they soothe me  ;-) . A wonderful end to another year . Cant wait to see what 2007 has in store for me .........................